Isn’t this the cutest tissue pack cover?! I like tissue pack covers because they make me want to bring tissues out more and I am such a man when it comes to bringing tissues that I don’t bring them out at all. I got my first one at Yaxun’s internship place when Janelle and I went to visit her! I had this white one with gold at the rims of the opening. It’s made by the elderly and it’s super pretty! So I don’t only love it but it’s meaningful.
And I lost it.
I was so sad but then I got over it because life is just going to move on whether or not you get through it so might as well get through it (I don’t know how it just turn into a life quote). So my next tissue pack cover will be full of meaning as well and it must be perfect just like the old one!
Javis and I was at Westgate yesterday and they had this fair where the people with disabilities and low income people come together and sell their things. Mostly handmade. It’s always more costly than anywhere else but it’s definitely worth it. This couple had this range of tissue pack covers like “Choped” and others that I have forgot but it is those singlish slangs for “reserved” because there was a time when using tissue packets to reserve seats at the hawker centres was popular. It occurs lesser now but I believe that there are still people who do that. In one way you can say they are selfish but in another way, it is a way of making sure you have a seat for lunch. Majority of Singaporeans like to make sure of everything, feel secure. It’s either black or white. No gray lines (will that seat still be empty when I get back?) because it annoys the shit out of us.
Okay, to continue to story, this other table is also selling tissue packets but not as witty as these covers and it’s by this girl with disabilities. Another thing is I don’t think doing things out of sympathy is very nice. You don’t do it ‘cos you want to help but more of that sight makes your heart ache which is wrong, to me. They are trying to do business so what makes them any different. I try not to do things out of sympathy but of course there are exceptions. So I told myself that I am not going to buy the tissue pack cover from that girl out of sympathy but get something I want. It’s like, shopping at an actual store; comparing clothes from Cotton On and H&M.
I got a rabbit rubber band from that girl though because I’ve always wanted one and the other stores aren’t carrying it so yay! Notice that it is not out of charity. You don’t buy from Cotton On for charity.
Charity is fine but not for businesses. I buy tissues from the elderly only if I run out of tissues, lol. If I do it out of sympathy then I, myself can open a tissue business.
2 relationship problems that has so many facets you can look at it from different points so here are some of my views. Er, if you disagree it’s alright because like I said, there are a lot of ways to look at it.
Patching after a break up.
I’m the kind that believe a break up is break up. There is no turning back. I fight for my relationships but just for the first few days or weeks. Then, I know I deserve better and shouldn’t be grovelling at some guy’s feet to take me back. Lol, the most annoying part about couples who does this is they count their monthsaries like the parts where they are on a break are counted. I have this friend who said, “We are together for two years but if you count all the break ups, it’s probably only about 1.5 years.” I like it, it’s honest. But okay, I get that you can’t say that to everyone you meet, like, he probably told me that because we are close. All these little things count to me so a break up just ruins the timeline, the whole thing. It’s such a mess. If a break up is decided by one party then what is the point of turning back. I’ve heard of cases where a couple broke up and got back together but they started timing on the day they got back together. That’s courage I think, lol.
On the other hand, it is a waste of the time you two had together but hmmmm, it is courage. Okay, I don’t have a say in other people’s relationships, lol.
Going to take the unpopular stand and say that cheating involves all 3 people and that the couple has a lot to be blamed. So A, B and C okay. The letters are unisex. A and B are together and C comes in between. I know this story where C and B started to like each other and C was feeling bad about all the feelings but B was like, “If A and me didn,’t have cracks, you wouldn’t have been able to come in even if you tried.” When I heard it I was, “that is so cool (and true).” Then A will blame C but probably A isn’t that good as a partner or B wouldn’t have went to C right? But it’s normal to hate C. C shouldn’t even make any moves and it’s only normal for all the hate to be on C because A loves B and it’s impossible to hate B. B is also at fault too, duh. How can you give into the temptation??? If B didn’t do anything do you think C would want to be with B? It takes both hands to clap man. So this whole thing is a push and pull effect. A’s effort in the relationship pushed B and C was pulling B so according to physics (?) B will go to C. Then A realizes the presence of C and starts to pull but it’s too late. Well, yeah, A pushed B but usually, A isn’t aware that they are pushing B and it sometimes, takes a break up to know that. I’ve seen miracles happen, though.
I’ve never been cheated on but I’ve heard stories and watched tons of tv! In American sitcoms, everybody cheats on everybody.
This brings me to dramas. Lets take Fated To Love You for example (super good Taiwan drama that I have loved to death). Xin Yi is actually the third party instead of Anna so why is everybody rooting for Xin Yi and Cun Xi to be together? Everybody keeps blaming Anna for coming in between but helloooooo, it’s Cun Xi’s fault? But the producers made the whole story in a way that you cannot blame Cun Xi and Xin Yi for discovering each other. However, Xin Yi and Cun Xi were like the best couple in the history of Taiwan dramas (just exaggerating I have so many other favourite couples) so B discovering C is not such a bad thing too. Oddly, as much as people hate it, sometimes, C is the true love. Anna keeps dancing and forgets about Cun Xi so Anna isn’t exactly a victim. Hmm, now that I look at it, B is probably more of a victim. Okay all three are victims. Anna reflected but why does she need Xin Yi’s presence to wake up? Low self awareness?
I’m a loser who sits on the fense, okay.
This for you to read and get a new perspective. I love reading new perspectives because it makes everything fairer and yeah, I don’t stand on sides. This leads me to another story that I will share soon.
Here are some of the songs I have been obsessed with in August. For me, because life throws me sweets, I try to find sadness in things like music, tv shows and books. Seems disturbing and weird but when life gives you candy all the time, you sort of want to taste the lemons and there are little ways to taste lemons. Of course, I enjoy the sweets as well. Okay okay, I need to rephrase. It’s not that life throws me candy all the time, I get lemons too but I turn them into lemon sweets!
The first song is Rude by MAGIC!.
I think it’s super cute and sweet. Love that has been denied by parents but both of them are still going to marry each other anyway. A friend cried really badly while listening to this song and that’s the sadness I feel in Rude. This is on repeat right now because Keegan kept singing it at the party and it got me hooked. It is catchy.
This is I Like That by Before You Exit.
It’s a band of three brothers and they are amazing. The youngest brother is born in 1998 and people have to stop judging people who are out in this industry at this age. They are making even more money than you without even finishing high school?! Even if they are famous for their faces, not like they chose not to be good looking. Thankful to Nadhirah for the introduction. I love their music. I’m not only an all rounder in tv shows, I’m an all rounder in music as well, -flips hair. Just because you are into indie doesn’t mean you have to hate mainstream songs. Okay this is getting out of topic.
This song is about the chase in a relationship. It’s about confessing and just loving everything about them! It super sweet and cute! For reasons, my phone keeps shuffling to this song after every maybe 2 or 3 songs. Lucky me.
Another favourite song from Before You Exit, Soldier!
It’s about being there for you through the tough times. I was so addicted to it I think it was on repeat for about a week. It was madness.
错的人 by Elva.
For the people who was blinded by love. You knew that loving that person was wrong; you got hurt repeatedly but you still held on to that hope that he/she is the one. A friend sang this song with so much emotions because she went through it. Songs help me feel what people feel.
想听的话 by 石欣卉 and 王建复.
This song is just soothing and sad. It reminds me of dance because the seniors danced to a track from this album. A friend cried while while listening to this song too.
I tried my best to shorten it because if there is too much, it would not be as exclusive as it should be. New and old songs for everyone!
The father, sister and I went out for breakfast at Zion Riverside food centre this morning at about 9am. I needed to get something from Great World City really badly. Psst, Kaiyan, you know what it is. It’s an upcoming project in memory of someone.
Came home and my mom got really excited to make wraps and my sister, who has a bottomless pit for a stomach, started making some.
I would have definitely enjoyed it more if it was chicken breast instead of turkey ham and if the cheese was melted. Denise does not partake in such healthy activities even though she totally should.
I have so much in my mind I want to blog about. I would have tons of thought vomits if the mobile app of WordPress allows me to toggle my publicize settings. Hmm, I guess I shall start now and schedule them for the next few days.
It’s 2 assignments and a quiz due this week!!! I can do this!
Just came back from a party and it’s one of the intimate kinds which I guess I kind of like? I went to one in February and I only said 2 sentences to the host because she had too many friends over! So, it’s a house party. Waiyee and me did up the party decorations and the guest book with Minjia’s mom, who is a joy to be with. I love her kind of humour. I miss secondary school so much afterwards. Most of us only left at 11.20. According to Waiyee, I think we left at 11.30-11.40.
I’ll have an intimate house party one day. I’ll DIY all the decorations and make the food. Goodnight everyone.
My plaid Vans that I bought x years ago but I only started wearing them about a year later. Production should have ceased by now.
It’s midweek and things are looking better than ever.
Some words from my lecturer while on the topic of depression.
Lecturer: “Regret and guilt lock people from moving forward. They wish they can make the past different. They make themselves angry over something they can’t change and it’s a long journey to acceptance.”
I held the stars to light where you are
When your unfeigned heart called to me through the dark
Soaked in the sound that rose from the ground
There I could feel
I felt, I felt you near
Oh I’d wait for the seas to part
To be with you
Oh I could sail the world
Search through the darkest waters
These are the last of my healthy breakfast collection. Selling my photos like other people selling clothes 8-)
Days when I can see my double eyelids. I have 内双眼皮 (inner eyelids) which is, if my eyes are too big (this sounds weird but I don’t know how else to explain it), it folds up into the eyelids so it looks like I have single ones.
I realized I haven’t played with the photobooth since I got my Mac and it’s my favourite application in all my friends’ mac.
Doing 345’s assignment 1 and making really slow progress but it’s still progress.