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Talk about the person you’ve had the most intense romantic feelings for.

I clearly didn’t read all the questions thoroughly before attempting this. They asked for the past, so clearly, Javis is out of the context.

I’ve had 2 relationships in the past, one when I was 14 and one when I was 16. I would probably say the feelings were more intense for the second one because I was so ready to be in a long term relationship and just go all the way. I thought 16 was the perfect age to start dating the one you are supposed to marry. I thought I found the one I was supposed to be with. I had so many ideals about that relationship that when it ended it almost killed me. OUT OF POINT, LOL.

So, I thought he was perfect. I overlooked all the flaws and was completely head over heels. I remember the good things and the bad. On Valentines’ Day, he stayed up late with his sister to bake me this 5 layered rainbow cake. Yes, before rainbow cakes were even in, I received one of my own. He delivered it to my house too because I was as sick as a dog. That was probably my favourite memory of us. Now thinking about it, I thought the worst part was the reason he left but, it’s probably when he let us die. He just stopped bothering.

Oh, one ridiculous thing I ever heard from him was that he is planning to convert me to a Christian so I won’t go to hell. What? I never understood that until some of my friends asked if we broke up because of religion. I never thought religion was ever a factor. I am super uncomfortable in churches so we’d have probably broken up sooner or later over it, lol. Of course, that happened nearing the end so I was like, “Hmm.. this feels weird.”

We are not friends at the moment but it’s probably never going to happen too, since he is the kind that cuts 99% of people off whenever he moves into a different phase.

Yep, Isaac thought me the most. Going to sound majorly cliché but I totally came out a much better person. I learnt that I have to love myself first before loving someone else because you are just going to be all dependent on the love from your partner and it’s so unhealthy, I feel. You shouldn’t be two people becoming halves to form a whole. It should be two wholes forming one whole. Like, 1/1 + 1/1 instead of 1/2 + 1/2.

I have to see my kids tomorrow morning so I better head to bed before I start spewing all my love theories out. I can totally do that, you know. Don’t try me, lol. I have tons.


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December 17, 2014 at 1:18 am

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Talk about #2

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Talk about your first kiss.

I was 14. It was a good bye one. It was just a peck and it came as such a surprise, I stood there in shock for a few seconds, hahaha.

Javis and I were just talking about our first kiss a few days ago and it was a super funny conversation. I am a very transparent person but I am extremely closed about the details. You can ask me when or where but you can’t ask me how. IT’S PRIVATE, LOL. Yes, Denise has secrets too. I am more open than 80% of human beings so at least, let me have the details all to myself. So I am probably not as transparent. Maybe, translucent?

THIS POST IS MAKING ME FEEL WEIRD. LOL. But I’m not going to do loser stuff like taking things down after putting them up. PROBABLY NEVER TALKING ABOUT KISSES AGAIN.

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December 16, 2014 at 12:35 am

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Talk about #1

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Attempting this.

Talk about the first time you watched your favourite movie.

I can’t pick a favourite movie but I am just going to randomly pick out one out of my pool of favourites. So, Mean Girls. I watched it probably when I was 11 or 12, I couldn’t remember. My mom would buy any movie for me, with Hillary Duff or Lindsay Lohan as the lead, as they were they Miley Cyrus and Selena Gomez of my childhood. Obviously, none of the sex stuff made sense but I still loved it. It showed how Cady tried so much to fit in only to realize that she didn’t need it. She found who really mattered to her as well. That was all that mattered to a 11 year old. However, my favourite scene was probably when Janis was explaining the cafeteria sitting arrangements. The thrill of seeing classifications started very young.

Of course, I have re-watched it several times and everything makes so much more sense, haha.

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December 15, 2014 at 12:32 am

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If you guys are home, I never want to leave

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We had a Christmas party and a secret santa gift exchange so it was super heartwarming. I arrived super late because I was at a party. Ashlyn had to rush off to another party but she waited for me and hung out a little longer so the 8 of us can be together again. Everyone brought food and it was my 4th meal of the day so I wanted to burst. Phyllis was the perfect secret santa because she totally got what I wanted and even helped me source for the other stuff that I want. Super, sweet, oh my gosh. My secret santee is Amanda!

I’m really lucky to have known this bunch. You 7 are like the siblings I never had and always wanted. Amanda and I joined in a little later than the others ‘cos we skipped LAC but that didn’t prevent this amazing thing from happening. You are all so accepting.

8 different personalities but we gel together so well. We can be in pairs, trios and we can talk about the world and nobody will feel out of place. Everyone is so open and trusting. No questions feel too intrusive nor will we feel the need to hide anything. We can play and we can have heart to heart talks. I don’t usually hang out in groups because I feel so all over the place or just stuck to one person but this group is my favourite. I don’t feel like I have to be everywhere. I can just stay in a spot and still be in on everything.

Ashlyn, Phyllis, Amanda, Jacqueline, Joseph, Basil and Xaiver, you all make up my favourite group. Such strong and lovely people in my life.

I have like, perfect eyebrows now. Yes, I just have to end it like that.

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December 15, 2014 at 12:12 am

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Lace and lalang part 2!

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And here is the second part with our faces!

Christmas is on it’s way and I have yet to get started on my presents for my friends. Not even the name list is done. Yep, I shall finish the name list today. I was thinking of doing it via snail mail but I keep having this vision that they are just going to throw my presents into boxes. Giving it personally means meeting up, which means some of it has to be rushed.. I’ll just give them after christmas if that is what it takes, lol. I don’t have the discipline to make them so early plus, I don’t like that it is laying around my house.

I’m not going to get a lot of things though. Just for the people I meet and chat on a frequent basis. I HAVE JUST MADE THE LIST. Efficiency at it’s finest.

The hardest part is next and I am dreading it.

I baked cookies today and for the first time, I had zero help and it turned out perfectly. Oatmeal raisin cookies; my favourite kind.

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December 8, 2014 at 1:08 am

Lalangs and lace

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Putting the faceless pictures out on my blog first. Everything turned out so pretty. We went out with our lace dresses to the lalang field at Tuas. The weather was windy instead of the usual heat and high humidity. It was really cloudy so no harsh sun rays. The best was that it didn’t rain, unlike all the other days of the week.

Both of us and two Canon 700Ds.

Walking with our shoes turned out really horribly because of the uneven terrain. Something must have fried my brain to think that it’s okay to wear 4 inches there so I took it off after a few minutes. The lalangs are tall enough that they block the shoes anyway.

I thought it turned out more natural without our shoes.

I’ll put up the ones with our faces soon.

The time has come when it starts snowing on my blog again. Hello, December.

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December 1, 2014 at 4:30 pm


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“I think if I’ve learned anything about friendship, it’s to hang in, stay connected, fight for them, and let them fight for you. Don’t walk away, don’t be distracted, don’t be too busy or tired, don’t take them for granted. Friends are part of the glue that holds life and faith together. Powerful stuff.” — Jon Katz

It’s been 12 years together and I’m ever so lucky to have you in my life.

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November 30, 2014 at 10:01 pm

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