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Lush’s Roots

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Introducing my favourite and the best product I have ever used on my hair. I don’t think I was recommended by a Youtuber or anything, I just went into the store and I was looking for something for my scalp because I can use all the oils and conditioner I want on my ends but my scalp is the root problem (pun intended) and I didn’t know how to attack it.

My scalp is oily and I get the occasional dandruff because sometimes I am just too lazy to dry my hair and I sleep on it. Horrible, I know. I asked around and the Lush employees were raving about this. As in, I know that’s what they are supposed to but it seems to do whatever I want to my scalp. What made me hesitate a bit was because the employees use it every other day and they finish a tub in a month. I can’t keep buying a new pot every month?! So I use it really sparingly.

It’s main ingredient is peppermint, I think, so you will feel this cooling sensation on your scalp after applying it. I like it! It feels like there is something going but it’s probably just the properties of mint. I like how it smells. Washing it off is like washing off conditioner. No tangles and it’s so smooth! They did suggest shampooing lightly if needed and I usually do that because I don’t think I can get all the product out with just water.

You know how dandruff has dry spots. It instantly disappears after I do this treatment. Of course they do come back because like I said, I am trying to ration it and I am too lazy. The key word is lazy.

The one thing I hate about it is applying it. My God, it’s so hard because I watched the video and it’s stupid that they showed a guy using it. His hair is so short that he is able to rub it all over his scalp. I can’t do that?! I have to section my hair to apply it and I have considered paying someone to apply it for me but that is as good as a fantasy. I can’t get it in every part but I know where the parts with dandruff because I have this weird habit of touching my scalp every now and then.

I have checked out the Lush stores in Singapore and one pot is $49.90 if I am not wrong. I CAN’T CAPS NUMBERS BUT 49.90. Or was it 39.90.

I bought it in Canada for CAD19.90. With conversion it’s only $21. LIKE, WHAT THE HELL. I don’t know why but the price is absurd. THIS IS WHY LUSH STORES ARE SO EMPTY IN SINGAPORE. Same as for Kiel’s! Lol, I can go on and on and it will go nowhere.

I don’t get the full effect of Roots because I only use it when I remember or when I feel my scalp needs it. It’s better for thin and fine hair which I do not have so I just apply it on my scalp and the leftovers on my hand, I will apply some to the body and the ends.

The pictures are black and white because I am wearing my super comfortable hello kitty pyjamas but it is in this hideous shade of pink that I really don’t like. It’s the kind of pink that clashes with everything.

Goodnight.

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July 24, 2015 at 11:13 pm

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Hello again

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Here is a little update.

I didn’t do a Sunday Currently today because I am posting really little and I don’t like two of the same post almost back to back on my page. I lost a thought I had during the week that I wanted to include in my Sunday Currently anyway so that’s a sign I should skip it this week.

I have 3 jobs at the moment and I am extremely happy with all of them. One is slightly more stressful and requires me to be more responsible which made me want to run away and quit and live like a loser and watch tv all day then I told myself, I’m so much better than that #truestory. It pays quite well too.

I met a lot of friendly people at Milkcow (one of the jobs) and thankfully, the ones I have met are pretty talkative and fun to be with. I still have a few part timers I have yet to meet! My first part time job in the F&B industry! I feel that I should do a little bit of this if I am going to go overseas because that should probably be the easiest job to find and it’s better to have some experience in that area.

3 part time jobs because I want the flexibility and that I don’t need to use a lot of mental energy. Why not a full time for a full year you ask? I don’t want to commit to anything for a year and only a year. I don’t want a company to waste their resources on me if I am not going to be there long term. Furthermore, I don’t want to be stuck in the cycle of “shit if I continue, I get a pay rise so should I? I should.” I don’t want to ruin any near future study plans because I am getting money. I have always felt that I need to be perfectly qualified with everything before going into something I plan to do for the rest of my life. You say excuses, I say freedom at the moment.

Loving this life because I come home with no worries about assignments and no workload to think about the next day. I don’t have aims to bring a company forward or those kind of responsibility placed on my shoulders.

Things change all the time. Who knows what 6 months will bring? If I don’t get accepted into any university (because it’s really tricky for my case) maybe I’ll just go into a full time job so I can back up my application in the future. It’s empowering to know that everything you do is something you have chosen. No regrets because I chose to throw myself into this life.

I’m alright by the way. I am and I will live a much better life than I have lived. I love life too much to let myself wither into nothing just because something doesn’t work out. All if you have to start believing me when I say I’m fine, guys!

I had a 5 hour nap so lets see how long I can be up.

Can someone buy me sims 4. I’m watching DanTDM’s Sims 4 series and I am addicted.

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July 20, 2015 at 12:56 am

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I know

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“I can’t wait to see you again actually. But it’s not supposed to be. Just thought I would let you know.”

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July 13, 2015 at 10:07 am

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The Sunday Currently Vol. 6

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Staring into my future and it’s as bleak as shit. Kidding. My face in the other photos were too round like a fishball so this it shall be.

R e a d i n g
Nothing because I just finished TFPCFH. I bet you are sick of me typing that under reading. I am too.

L i s t e n i n g
Jay Chou’s 请给我一首歌的时间.

T h i n k i n g
How kind of sore my heels are from a half day shift at Milkcow. Definitely way better than ACW because ACW renders me crippled after work ends.

W i s h i n g
To have more money because it is really tight for me at the moment.

H o p i n g
To have a good meal later because I am starving, my God.

W e a r i n g
A white t shirt and mint green shorts.

L o v i n g
Sexy Look’s blackhead pore cleanser set because I am using it right now. I love to see my blackheads stuck on the pink strip and I’ll touch and look at it for about half an hour before throwing it away. It’s a satisfying feeling that I just want to hold on to instead of looking at it for a second.

W a n t i n g
Sims 4 for Mac, thanks.

N e e d i n g
Star Vista to install air con because I have fans around me still feel sticky afterwards.

F e e l i n g
Calm and happy because I am removing my blackheads after so many months.

C l i c k i n g
On the website to stream 2 Broke Girls. I am obsessed.

Written by Denise

July 12, 2015 at 5:46 pm

So,

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“So how was it? Not texting me.”

“Lonely.”

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July 6, 2015 at 11:07 pm

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彩虹

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I’m not going to publicize this post because it is going to find it’s way to people’s browsers by mouth. Who knew we would end up like this. None could believe it.

Hello.

The last few photos of us. We broke up around 8pm last night. I’m okay. I accepted the reasons. When we first talked about it on Thursday, I swear I was just crying here and there and everywhere. Serena had to bring me to her house to let me cry. Joanne came into the room with ice-cream for me. I cried from 6 to 10. It was so bad that I had to go through all these again. Of course, I didn’t think about losing my life and threaten him to come back. Every time when someone asks me what will happen if the both of us break up, I’d say, “I’ll be so sad but I know I’ll live and get my life back together.”. I think his was, “I’ll hit rock bottom but I’ll manage it.”.

Yuanyi got the call next because she went through similar things.

Then I slowly started to get help from a few people because I couldn’t handle the pain. I thought of sleeping over at Yuanyi’s so I don’t have to hide the tears in the house.

I went to work the next day with sunglasses on because every time I think about it, I just cry.

You all need to stop saying that it is because he wants to go back to being christian and he cannot date a non-christian girl, okay. I probably didn’t explain it properly but omg, breaking up because of religion is so dumb.

  1. Okay, he needs to find God and with me in his life, it’s distracting because of the feelings he has for me
  2. He can’t picture himself with anyone anymore because he isn’t suited for a relationship

So number 1 was, of course I didn’t understand it so I called Joseph up and he got it immediately so he is going to explain it to me later. 3 days later I understood what it means already, though. I got angry at churches, christianity, his church friend.

I said something to Serena like, “What the hell is your God teaching you?” But I said sorry after and before that line. Thank you for taking it so calmly, Serena, I love you.

2 was the reason I kept crying. Did I do something wrong? I was such a sucky girl friend that I pushed him to not want a relationship anymore. He doesn’t love me and all the rest.

Minjia and Waiyee had to be with me on Day 2. I made them go to Kbox with me because that was the only place I could cry. Their company is the best because I have one that is super sassy but soft at the same time so I could just let everything go. The other one just makes me laugh so hard and that’s what I wanted. You two are the best.

Mireille had to take over my teaching appointment in the afternoon because I was crying so badly and every time I use my phone I’d just burst into tears. Thank you, Mireille.

Vivian had to help me see things from Javis’ view because she is the 2nd Javis.

Day 3 I dragged the day. I wanted to drag 2 months more. NOT to change his mind because he is dead set on breaking up with me. He agreed but after going out with this new friend, he said no. He told me it’s the last day. So I cried all over again. Nicholas had to handle me in the morning because I started cried from 7 to 10, then he passed me off to Waiyee (okay, they think is a relay. Kidding, thank you two, hee hee). Zhenliang told me to stop dreaming and shit like that. Amanda Yin had to handle me too because she talked to me when I was full blown crying. 10 people told me to stop pleading him anymore and just wake up and move on. I kept saying no.

Only Kangling understood and actually felt that my way of thinking is right. She understood why dragging it on is okay. She understood my thinking when everyone was just asking me to snap out of it. It’s just one person but I didn’t feel so stupid after that. She also added that if I were to drag on two months more, Javis is going to have to handle the break up all on his own in a new environment when I have so many people in Singapore and it’s selfish. So that’s when I started convincing myself to give it up but I couldn’t.

I stopped trying to get him back when Javis started crying. He cried so badly that I know he didn’t want to do this too. This is so so so hard for him but he is doing it because he has to. If it was hard for me, it’s definitely way harder for him because he made the decision to leave me when he loves me so much. That’s when I decided to let him go. I was making it so hard to leave me when it’s already hard enough.I stopped crying because I finally understood. I understood everything.

We went for our last date in Ang Mo Kio hub. It was so nice because it was like all of these didn’t happen. We went to eat, we walked around in the supermarket because that’s one of our favourite things to do. It wasn’t sad at all because we wanted to make it a happy one. It ended when I got onto the MRT.

I texted his mom to thank her for all her family has done for me. She was so sad too because she likes her sons to have girlfriends and she takes the break ups quite badly, haha. She felt like a friend then.

My mom asked when didn’t Javis send anything to her, LOL. So he sent her one.

Raj was with me until 2am telling me harsh truths and making me laugh.

I got home and Javis said my mom sent him a long text. OKAY I ALMOST CRIED because she said she hopes to see him again and that our family really loved him and will miss him. She told him she understood why he had to find God and leave me. It was shocking because my father is more religious one so I thought my father would understand it more but he just said crap, haha. And Javis sent back that he will miss coming to see my popo all the way down to my youngest cousin.

Mandy is giving up her house to me.

Glenn took time off from Korea to made sure I was alright because he kept spamming me.

Winston plans to sneak out of camp for me.

Vincent Kang and my sister thought it was a joke.

Joseph called me at least 10 times because I didn’t pick up.

Joseph who stays at Simei and Amanda who stays at Choa chu kang aare coming down to super remote Mount Faber safra to sing with me.

I cope with pain by constantly talking about it until it doesn’t hurt to explain anymore. That’s my coping mechanism for almost everything.

My mom is making me so sad right now. I woke up at 7.30 and she woke up with me which is shocking because she doesn’t wake up until 10am on the weekends. She told me she couldn’t sleep because she is so sad about our break up. She is so so sad that we are not together anymore.

Speaking about my popo, I told her we broke up and the first thing she said was, “Why didn’t you listen to him?”, “Why did you fight with him?” LOL, isn’t she such a cutie. Every time if Javis doesn’t turn up, she will say, “Why isn’t he here. Popo doesn’t scold him. I like him so he has to come all the time. Tell him popo likes him so he doesn’t have to be scared to come.” Ninghuan would always help me to massage his back for him which was useless ‘cos an 8 year old arm is like a feather.

I actually planned for the next few days to either be in KTVs and sleeping in friends’ houses because I don’t want to cry alone on Day 1 and Day 2. I was fully prepared but now I feel that it is not needed because I’m alright now. The fact that we still love each other is making me live properly and not moping everywhere.

Because I made my relationship so public since Day 1, I had always been ready to be public about the break up because it is only fair. Thank you for all the support you have given us. Thank you to the fan club presidents, Janelle and Clarissa, so I felt that they had to be told too. Thank you to Huiqi for making this super awesome scrapbook about our love because we were her ideal couple. Thank you to those who told me they based their relationship on mine because that’s a freaking high honor. Thank you for thinking we are perfect. I’m not going to say things like, “We weren’t, we have ups and downs.” We were perfect to me because of our ups and downs and it will stay perfect in my mind.

We are still talking and we will let it go gradually because a clean cut is just disorienting. I asked my two exes to talk to me a bit post break up so I can slowly get used to the change but they said no.

This is why Javis is so special. We will be the best thing that has ever happened to each other. I’m waiting for the day he realizes he is okay with being in a relationship and comes back to me. It could be next week. It could be 10 years. If he doesn’t, I’ll just see where life takes the both of us :)

Show some love to Javis too. He is hurting so so much, he needs some care too.

I’m okay, don’t worry. We heal. We all do.

Written by Denise

June 28, 2015 at 9:29 am

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Microwaved onions

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I am here to share my favourite snack! I know this shouldn’t even count as a recipe but I really want to make it seem like one so I’m gonna do it! It’s idiot-proof.

First you will need:

1-2 onions
A few squirts of olive oil
1/2 tsp of salt

A microwavable cup/bowl
Fork/spoon

I am using olive oil because I have it in a little spray bottle and I feel that it is easier to control the amount that goes into the onions.

First, you spray some oil into the bowl or cup. I usually use a cup but I wanted a bigger serving this time. Second, you slice up some onions into those rainbow shapes then you place them in the bowl. Use a fork or spoon to mix it up so the onions get coated in the oil. For the third step, you just use an appropriate amount of salt, I usually use about 1/2 a tsp but well, it depends on how much onions you are intending to eat. Then you mix it all up really well. Lastly, you throw it in the microwave and depending on whether you want it crispier or soggier, you can put it in for any time from 1 minute to 2 minutes. I usually put 1.5 minutes because I like it soggy. I did it for 2 minutes this time because it’s a larger bowl.

Yep, no need to bust out the frying pan and spatula just to stir fry some onions when you can just do it with the microwave and in a cup. You cut down on things to wash as well.

I eat this when I am hungry but it’s not the time for a huge meal and onions are my life. I swear, it’s the bomb.com

Written by Denise

June 25, 2015 at 2:41 pm

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