Hey,

I was made for loving you – Tori Kelly

A dangerous plan, just this time
A stranger’s hand clutched in mine
I’ll take this chance, so call me blind
I’ve been waiting all my life
Please don’t scar this young heart
Just take my hand

I was made for loving you
Even though we may be hopeless hearts just passing through
Every bone screaming (I don’t know what we should do)
All I know is, darling, I was made for loving you

Hold me close through the night
Don’t let me go, we’ll be alright
Touch my soul and hold it tight
I’ve been waiting all my life
I won’t scar your young heart
Just take my hand

‘Cause I was made for loving you
Even though we may be hopeless hearts just passing through
Every bone screaming I don’t know what we should do
All I know is, darling, I was made for loving you

Please don’t go, I’ve been waiting so long
Oh, you don’t even know me at all
But I was made for loving you

I was made for loving you
Even though we may be hopeless hearts just passing through
Every bone screaming I don’t know what we should do
All I know is, darling, I was made for loving you

It overflowed

When all of these feelings cannot be contained anymore,
I hope you’ll be there to hold them all.

It’s a cup that is filling up ever so quickly. When you cannot find the line drawn between anything. It’s all just a big beautiful mess that I don’t want to get out off.

So in this warmth I’ll stay.

I’ll write. I’ll write to you so so much until it doesn’t seem that my feelings is bursting at the seams. You will hold the parts that have overflowed and you should know, those are just the parts that I cannot swallow.

θ°’θ°’

“Ya, like, I just wanted to send you home ‘cos you are sick. Sitting in a car is definitely better than taking an mrt. Like if you are perfect as shit, obviously I’m going to let you go home yourself ‘cos I want to go home and sleep too.”

HAHAHA. Way to ruin it, but thank you. You and all your weird eating habits.

I realised the doctor didn’t tell me what I am suffering from

As sick as a 90 year old man. I went to a new clinic today because my entire family decided to boycott the one we always go to. Have I mentioned that I absolutely love the cough syrup. The joy I couldn’t possibly express when the doctor said she is going to give me a bottle of that.

I found those old medicine spoon because God knows I can’t just pour 10ml of syrup using eye measurement. I don’t know about you all but when I was little (all we could take were syrups then) my ah ma would swirl the spoon in the cup of water then pour the syrup and gave it to me, swirl the spoon in it again to wash off the leftovers then pour the next syrup. Okay now writing it down, it’s actually a really should-do kind of thing. I found solace in doing that so I kept swirling the spoon in the cup.

My cough is causing 100% of the pain I feel. It’s horrible. I have had several cups of pi pa gao but it is not working for me at all. Oh, I love the taste of pi pa gao by the way. WHY DO I NOT HAVE IT ALL MY LIFE. Okay, it doesn’t help in soothing the throat at all. Well, at least, not mine. But imma still drink it because I love it.

My phlegm is green and I feel like a dragon. An utterly sick dragon.

Pardon the hiatus cos I have been way too happy to be on this space.

“Making love was never about me and you in a bed. We made love whenever we held hands.”
β€” Iain Thomas

For two people whose physical touch scored really low on the love language survey, the sensation behind every touch between us is multiplied two fold.

We don’t need it but when we do touch,
it’s electrifying.

I’m fuming

Me: “Don clubbed before why are you treating me any different from him.”
Mom: “It’s because you are a girl.

When people make being born a girl as a wrong choice. When people use your gender to disallow you to do certain things. We’re weak, they say. I could ramble on and on about what we cannot do but there are loads of posts like this on tumblr and facebook so I shan’t bother.

So frustrating.

“It’s okay, I’ll protect you so you won’t have to face this kind of thing.”
β€” When we were having a heated discussion about rape culture.

To wait

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Things get better when you stop thinking everyone needs saving. This need to help is putting me in holes I have never thought of getting into.

I looked through the photos from my recent trip to the Future Exhibition and I’m only satisfied with the ones from the crystal room. My lenses are really tight so that didn’t help.

I don’t know how long I can keep this up
because the heart is fleeting
especially mine.
I wouldn’t trust mine, to say the least.