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Talk about the time you were most content in life.

It would be now. Not nitpicking on anything at the moment. I don’t expect much out of life so it has been content for a really long time now. I have everything I need right now.

Although to go to the other side of this topic, I did feel completely dissatisfied with the way I was spending my summer break. I had fun but I wasn’t doing anything completely productive. Then, I saw a quote yesterday,

Time you enjoyed wasting is not wasted.

I felt so so much better about the break. I did not earn as much money as I wanted but how I spent my days at home are days I wouldn’t trade. I indulged in all that made me happy and ceased those that didn’t. I did nothing much in the form of monetary pleasure because I was mostly relying on my allowance and abit of part time pay. I found joy in things that didn’t require me burning a hole in my pocket and I am glad.

Being so contented makes me the least motivated person in the world.

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March 22, 2015 at 11:21 am

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Black meets red

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The look for Corinne’s birthday party yesterday! We were told to either be in all black or white! I wanted to be in white but I didn’t want to use the new dress I bought and I didn’t have anything else so, I pulled something together at the last minute! The whole black ensemble made me want to go with a red lip. I wanted to put hair spray like how I would usually style it then my hair was being really nice in a flat way. I don’t like it when my hair becomes flat but it gave off a different vibe then (like Yura’s hair). Absolutely loving the colour of my hair. It’s 1/3 black because of the roots and the line between the colours are not too stark like how dip-dyes would look like. It’s a gradual colour.

예쁘다, yes, I am talking about me, HAHA! Don’t expose me, Janelle (who is sending me all her snapchats of her in Korea omg. SHE FORCED ME TO REVIVE MY SNAPCHAT)

I watched the last episode of Jjongah couple and Namyoung couple. Jjongah’s was too abrupt and I hated it. I hated that they (and me) didn’t have time to soak in the fact that their pretend marriage is over. Namyoung’s one made my eyes water. After they knew they are ending, they had to go through with their wedding photoshoot. They had time to relive the memories and soak up the reality.

I remembered I was super annoyed with X when she said WGM is scripted and fake; they are all acting. It is a fact that it is a pretend marriage but the feelings and everything was pure! I don’t think there is much to act about. It’s not like they fell for each other. They ARE supposed to treat each other like they are married. When people make you feel naive for liking something, that is horrible. You can choose not to believe it but you don’t pressure me into feeling the same, you know.

I want to start on a new series but I think I should start on my essay first.

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March 15, 2015 at 3:08 pm

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Death and dying

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My grandaunt just passed away at the age of 93 last night.

She was the healthiest 90 year old I had ever come across. Only 3 weeks ago, I went to her house on Chinese New Year and she kept asking me to eat.

Then last week she was sent to the hospital because her stomach and liver has stopped working. So I think, last night, her heart did.

Exactly one week later, is her grandson’s wedding. My mom put it in a way that she chose to pass away exactly a week before so on the day of the wedding, they don’t have to worry about her. She also chose to pass away after all her family members have left for home.

My grandaunt is super close with my grandma. I think that’s why my grandma didn’t want to visit her in the hospital at all. She told me to not go there too.

My mom went almost everyday. Our first thought was that she was just a little too nosy because we are close but not that close. Then she confessed that when she had surgery almost 20 years ago, grandaunt came down and visited her as many times as she could. So my mom said it’s her way of reciprocating which is by visiting her after work everyday she is in the hospital.

I am glad she lived a full life. At age 93, that’s a mighty long life. She already has great grand kids too.

I am someone who, at this age of 21, cannot grasp the whole concept of death and dying. I cannot understand its finality, that it is inevitable. It’s something that you cannot escape from.

I started playing Sims around last year. I didn’t know that you can choose to stop your characters from aging. My two main characters died and they were begging the grim reaper to let them off, their children started crying, the man died first then I saw how lonely the woman was. I thought about death for a week. I have to go through generations of dying. I can’t prolong anybody’s life. One day, I’m going to have to see people I love in a coffin.

Javis can’t even talk about death. He told me once he wants to die at 30 so he doesn’t have to see anyone he loves, die.

Chinese new year will never be the same as this year. At least she pulled through after all the festivities. I won’t see her at the Lee Foundation lunches as well.

It’s sad. When someone passes away, your life still goes on. That’s the only thing I hate about life, I guess. Is that it ends, for everyone.

and now I am starting to feel pissed that my grandma might not be able to see my kids because I am not going to get married so early. I AM ONLY GETTING MARRIED AT 30 OMG THIS PISSES ME OFF SO SO MUCH. ZZZ.

Sadness is turning into anger. I’m going to go back to We Got Married.

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March 8, 2015 at 6:32 pm

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Valentines’ Day dinner @ Tony Romas

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I brought Javis to Tony Romas for dinner on the eve of Valentines because they had this Valentine’s Day set meal! We went to the branch at suntec city. You can’t make any reservations so you’ll have to wait and we only waited about 10 minutes before we got a booth seat.

The meal consisted of a choice of mocktail or cocktail and we went for the cocktail, hahahahahah.

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Soup and a huge starter! Chicken bites which were so delicious!! But we left some because we needed space for our main!

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The main was this huge plate of meat which made us very happy!! There were sausages, RIBS, prawns!! Javis had all the corn because I hate corn. HATE. Not as much as I hate peas but HATE.

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Molten lava cake was the dessert and Javis loved it! Extremely decadent. Can you use decadent like that. I do not know, it’s my first time using it, lol.

The food was superb! The ambiance was lovely because the lights were dim but bright enough to see what we are eating. I have seen Tony Romas from the outside and it looked so dark that I thought I wouldn’t be able to see what I was eating, haha. The service was awesome! I noticed that they were hiring so I guess manpower is lacking. If any of you encounter slow service I guess it is because they do not have enough people to cater to the amount of customers they have every night so I think we just have to understand. Everyone was very nice and they will check up on us from time to time to ask how we are doing and how is the food. We had a lovely time!

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We watched something before heading over to suntec.. Oh, we watched I’m fine, thank you, I love you. It’s a Thai movie! WE LOVE THAI MOVIES. We have caught 3 so far so I think once a year, haha. They make the best romantic comedies and more or less, made me cry which is hard (I like to think that it isn’t very easy to make me cry).

Sorry for the 9 day haitus! I’ll do up the Valentine’s day post next! It’s the CNY period and I getting really busy! School starts next week as well.

See you soon!

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February 19, 2015 at 8:47 pm

Talk about #15

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I did up my About Me page!

Talk about the time you were most content in life.

Probably a month ago before the thought that I need money to fulfill all the things I want to do this year. I was living life. I did all I wanted to do. I had no worries. Everyday I get to sleep in, I get to do what I love, I get to do anything whenever I can. I am still a student and students have the best lives, I swear. Well, my kind of student life. Everything was going so so well. I kept myself at home because I was living on my allowance but I had so many things to indulge myself into. Okay, all this is making me less discontented about not working as much as I would like. I grew in so many ways.

This is a lovely Ask Me.

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February 10, 2015 at 11:37 pm

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Rêveur

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The name “Reveur” is in reference to that alternate title for the circus – Le Cirque Des Reves. “Rêveur” literally means “Dreamer”.

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THESE PEOPLE ARE AMAZING. I am just ugly at every angle except when taking photos of myself. HOW DID THEY MANAGE THAT. Goddess in the making over here. I do not look as calm as I did in those pictures I can tell you that. My brain was on overdrive and I rub my nails when I am nervous. The photo captured by Bearfangs, I WAS BLINKING, OMG. I’m not going to do stuff like close my eyes and stand there. Read the previous post and know that I hate posing for someone else. Never going to be model material. I’m okay with self shoots and a good friend.

The more I look at these pictures, the more not-goddess-like I feel, LOL. I shall not look at it and retain my goddess image.

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February 9, 2015 at 12:54 am

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Blind devotion

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I cried so badly at this. THEY ARE AMAZING. I have been crying since last night because I went to watch The Time Traveller’s Wife at about 12am. I was swimming in my own tears until I almost drowned.

Crying makes me feel alive. I don’t get to cry much in life so I watch stuff to trigger tears.

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February 8, 2015 at 5:25 pm

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