Trust me

To you,

Trust me,
I will love you like no other

Trust me,
I won’t let you fall

Trust me,
I’ll get you believe again

Trust me,
I don’t think I do better when it comes to you

Trust me,
your heart is safe in my hands

Trust me,
I’ll walk through it all with you

Trust me,
I won’t leave you

Trust me,
we can do this together

Falling for you

“Falling for him wasn’t like a fairy tale. It wasn’t meeting him for the first time and knowing that he is the one for me. Falling for him was like trying to play a song. It was like learning a new note everyday and slowly learning how to play the whole song.”

 

Whirlwind

Did she miss him?

She wanted to lose herself in him. To tie his arms around her like a tourniquet.

If she showed him how much she needed him, he’d run away.

— Eleanor and Park

I spent the past week being a needy little bitch. Never thought I could let myself fall completely in love and I’m sure I can never save myself from this.

It’s so liberating, though. I live for the days I feel emotions so strong I get my head wrapped up in it. I live for the days to say “I’m not okay.” or “I feel amazing.” instead of the usual, “I’m okay.” Days of consistency and being content is out the window now. I’d be sad for ten days if it means I’d get to be happy for one.

I live for the emotions that come along with loving you.

Because they (you) make me feel alive.

Thank you for always waiting for me to reach the lift before you drive off. Such a tiny action on your part and it became my favorite way to end the day.

Our day.

I have so much I want to say

So much going through my life right now and I’ve never been happier.

“I mean, I don’t know,” she says. “I just sometimes hoped that I could have something more than fine. Someone who made me feel like I hung the moon. But I sort of stopped believing that existed, I think. And I figured, why not marry a guy like Mark? He’s a nice guy.” — Gabby (Maybe in Another Life)

I think it’s one thing to find someone who makes you feel like you hung the moon, it’s another to find someone whom you think, hung the moon and placed every single star in the sky.

When all you want to do is give and give and give and it’ll be okay if nothing is returned because that person’s happiness is above your own. It’s so unconditional and very much what I have been wanting and wished for for a long time.

I’ve always been plagued with this question since primary school. Yes, since then. I get asked or I ask it around.

“Is it better to have someone you love but he doesn’t love you back or having someone who loves you but you don’t love him.”

Yes, it’s pretty extreme and there are definitely conflicting explanations; I’ve heard plenty. I’ve always wanted the former but I think it’s kind of sad too if the person doesn’t love you back. So being selfish people, eventually growing up and experiencing shit, you’d pick someone who loves you more. So protected and safe, who cares if sparks didn’t fly. He loves you, he places you on a pedestal, that’s enough right? As long as your heart is guarded.

No. It isn’t enough. You’ll stay up all night thinking if this is right. Thinking if you could have something more but at the same time you tell yourself to be contented with what you have because who are you to be so self centered. Thinking that it’s okay. Maybe in another life because the life you are leading now is okay. Not the best but it’s fine.

So things happened and I was left at a place where I could think for myself again.

Then, I found you.

I found the feelings I wanted to experience at full blast for a really long time. It isn’t even emphasized because it’s there. It’s just there in full scale and it’s the best. To really open up your entire heart, to not care about guarding yourself, to just love someone unconditionally despite how unexpected it is.

The universe treated me well. I’m a very lucky person. Not because I found you but it moulded me to the person I am and that brought me, you.

Hey,

I was made for loving you – Tori Kelly

A dangerous plan, just this time
A stranger’s hand clutched in mine
I’ll take this chance, so call me blind
I’ve been waiting all my life
Please don’t scar this young heart
Just take my hand

I was made for loving you
Even though we may be hopeless hearts just passing through
Every bone screaming (I don’t know what we should do)
All I know is, darling, I was made for loving you

Hold me close through the night
Don’t let me go, we’ll be alright
Touch my soul and hold it tight
I’ve been waiting all my life
I won’t scar your young heart
Just take my hand

‘Cause I was made for loving you
Even though we may be hopeless hearts just passing through
Every bone screaming I don’t know what we should do
All I know is, darling, I was made for loving you

Please don’t go, I’ve been waiting so long
Oh, you don’t even know me at all
But I was made for loving you

I was made for loving you
Even though we may be hopeless hearts just passing through
Every bone screaming I don’t know what we should do
All I know is, darling, I was made for loving you

It overflowed

When all of these feelings cannot be contained anymore,
I hope you’ll be there to hold them all.

It’s a cup that is filling up ever so quickly. When you cannot find the line drawn between anything. It’s all just a big beautiful mess that I don’t want to get out off.

So in this warmth I’ll stay.

I’ll write. I’ll write to you so so much until it doesn’t seem that my feelings is bursting at the seams. You will hold the parts that have overflowed and you should know, those are just the parts that I cannot swallow.